1. I remember it as if it were yesterday. A week from today and seven years ago, I was on my knees in desperation. I was desperate, isolated, and what felt like a prisoner in my home. Drunk and high, and with suicidal thoughts permeating my mind, body, and soul, I was at the end of my rope and hanging there by a fingernail. Crying tears of pain, I didn’t know where to run because I ran out of places… to hide. I wanted out!! I was at my rock bottom and the only place I could look, was up. A cocaine addict by day and a vodka drinker by night, I was scared and the light was fading quickly, I needed help. I thought I could do it, I thought I could handle my addiction but I spiraled out of control, hurting everyone in my life.
What was I going to do? I never wanted to be in this position, it just happened! When asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, addict or alcoholic was not on the top of my list!!
What happened to me?
Where did I go wrong?
“God please help me and take me away from this awful life and please watch over my family”, I said, “or please help me stop using drugs and alcohol”
Like I said, I remember it as if it were yesterday and I thank God every day for removing that obsession from my soul to drink and drug, one day at a time…
I write this to let you know, the still sick and suffering alcoholic or drug addict, that yes, it is possible to stop using, yes, it is possible to live a sober life, and yes, the 12 promises of AA do come true if you work your sobriety like you worked your addictions. To you, the still sick and suffering, there is hope, there is a way out and it is right in front of you, it is called sobriety. If I, a hope(less) human being can not only live sober, but love living sober, you can too…I promise!!!
If you need help, just ask me or any other sober person. We will always help!!
Warmest regards,
Rich Barnes
www.richfulthinking.com