Have you ever been alone and you just start to cry because you thought about your life and came to some sort of a sick realization that life sucks and nobody cares about you, or that nobody would even miss you if you were not here?
Have you ever sat by yourself and realized that nobody understands the pain you are going through or have gone through?
Have you ever just smiled and/or laughed so no one would notice that you are crying on the inside?
Have you ever told yourself that you are inadequate, ugly, fat, less than, not worthy, or a bad person, only to be agreed with by the monsters that live inside your mind?
Have you ever looked in the mirror and wanted to smash it into little pieces, not because of what the reflection looks like, but because you hate the mere image of yourself and what your life has turned into?
Have you ever sat by yourself and pondered on your life and how empty it is?
Have you ever sat there, alone in your thoughts, and wondered as to why every thought you think about yourself, is negative?
Have you ever thought back to that “bad time” in your life and that specific initial thought brought you right back to that “bad time” and held you hostage for days on end?
If you answered “YES” to any of these questions, ya, I feel your pain. When I was active in my addictions, my thoughts were always of a negative rapport and it was those very thoughts that kept me stuck in isolation, depression, and eventually, suicidal. I never in a million years thought, or even understood, that it was my thoughts that was the driving force behind my negative actions, thus creating a negative life.
I have since learned that if I want to lead a positive life, I “MUST” think thoughts of a positive rapport. You see, I have a mind that cannot be trusted and my mind wants me defeated, depressed, and will always tell me that I am a loser and will never make anything of myself and now, I know it in my heart that that is simply not the case. In order to move forward in life, I must believe I can do just that, if I want to succeed at something, I must first see myself succeeding at it, if I do not want to live an “empty” life, I must fill it with people who will pick me up when I fall and encourage me to go on, if I ever get a thought that I am not worthy of happiness, I must turn that thought around and realize that “EVERYONE” is entitled to happiness….
You see, everything starts in our minds and if you, like me, have a mind that cannot be trusted, open up your heart as wide as it can open and start using that as your guide. Yes, you are beautiful, yes, you are worthy of being happy, yes, your life can be filled with joy, peace and serenity, yes, you are loved by more people than you will ever know, and the pain you are feeling, is only temporary and you must let it go so you can move forward.
Life is what you think of it, I know that now. I am the creator of my journey, as are you. If you think you can, you will. If you think you can’t, you won’t, it is that simple. Imagine this for a second, a small little river, if continuously fed with more and more water, will become a raging river, right? Now, what if we take our negative minds and start feeding it positive thoughts? What if we keep feeding that negative mind more and more positive thoughts? Will it not eventually become a raging river of positivity? I know the metaphor is a little crazy but it is the best thing I can think of to demonstrate the power of our thoughts!!!!
So in closing, thoughts are just that, thoughts, and they can’t hurt you unless you allow them to. So from here on out, when your mind starts to go to that place that is going to make you feel uncomfortable, cast that thought away and replace it with a happy, fulfilling thought!!!!!!
Have a great day and keep that raging river of positivity flowing,
Rich Barnes