The Opiate Addict
Alone and afraid, I am riddled with fear,
I can hear death calling, cuz I know he is near.
Another pill down my throat, another needle in my arm,
On my body and spirit, I am inflicting so much harm.
My hurt is so great, an un-describable pain,
Unsteady are my hands, I can’t hit my own vein.
Life is not my own, I am just barely existing,
My addiction is so strong, and it’s always persisting.
I lie cheat and steal, I’ve been doing this too long,
I am getting weaker by the day, no longer am I strong.
What once was a habit, I started doing this for fun,
Has turned my life upside down, and the world thinks I’m a bum.
I must stop this addiction now, because I do not want to die,
I am so sick of living sick, I am so sick of living the lie.
Please help me I say, because I want to get clean,
I no longer want to be bitter, neither angry, nor mean.
So many years of abuse, so many years of deception,
I need to change my thoughts, my actions, and perceptions.
So I got down on my knees, and I learned how to pray,
and the fog that I once lived in, has magically gone away.
No more needles no more pills, I have finally cut that chain,
I know I have lost so much, but I have so much more to gain.
Being alive and being sober, there is no better way to be,
Being alive and being sober, allows me to love me!!!!!
Addiction, the phenomenon of craving something that you need more and more of despite the pain it provides.
I hate addiction but I am glad I am a recovering addict. If you are reading this and you are high, you no longer have to be. Believe it or not and despite how heavy our addictions are, we have a “choice” and a “voice” but seldom use them because we are lost. We “MUST” gain that strength and become stronger than that needle, and become stronger than that pill. YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!
If you are active in your addiction, there is help out there and if you think that there is not help anywhere, my hand is extended to you to help. We, you and I, are only one person in the fight against addiction, but when we come together, when we come together and fight against this disease called addiction, we are an army!!!!!!! Let’s do this!!!!!!!!
Have a great and sober day!!!!!!!
Rich Barnes
www.richfulthinking.com