There was once a place where I hated to be. It was a deep and dark place, riddled with bad days, bad memories, and with no enjoyment whatsoever. It was a place I vacationed for most of my life and was never privy to, or could not see, the pain and anguish it was not only causing me, but the people who truly cared about me as well. This place stole many years of my life and actually almost cost me my life. This place, this awful place in which I slept in, lived in, and breathed in, was my own mind. My mind, a creative genius in bullying, deception, un-truths, mischief, bad behaviors, and manipulation, ruled my life for over 25 long years. I, being as sick as I was, was embedded in a life in which my delusional mind was calling the shots. It was if I was just a servant carrying out the plans of an evil doctor!! My life was governed by an evil empire and every time I had a moment, a brief speckle of clarity to see the reality of what was truly going on in my mind, I was shackled, beaten, and throw back in the depths of my mind. It was truly debilitating and crippling all rolled up together and living a life such as this, is truly one of the worst paths that can be walked…
In hindsight and over 7 years removed from this wretched life that once seemed to have plagued my life forever, I truly believe that it has taught me many of life’s wonderful attributes. It has taught me the meaning of gratitude and how to, despite what my circumstances that surround me may look like, be grateful for everything that I have! It has shown me how to be kind and considerate, while allowing the deep rooted anger and selfishness to dissipate, never to rear their ugly head again. Benevolence, happiness, moral standards, and ethical practices now live in my heart and overshadow the sadness and despair I once lived in and accepted as real.
Today, for me, life is nothing short of a miracle. My mind is not the vehicle in which I ride to take me places any longer, for my new way to get to places is with my heart. I will utilize my heart in every instance where determining what is right and what is wrong needs a valid disposition. I will live each day predicated on the choices, decisions, and momentum that my heart provides me and will never live in my mind again. I love the life I have and the life I lead, and as weird as this may sound or appear to be, I am so very grateful for the years I spent in my mind because without the pain that I “NEEDED” to go through, I would never in a bazillion years be where I am today!!!
I hope your day will be as great as mine will be. Despite what may be happening in your life, be grateful for everything you have and always find the good. We only have one life to live, so enjoy every day, every hour, every minute, and every second as if it is your last!!!!
YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!!!!
Rich Barnes