I have drank and I have drugged,
And I have done it for years.
I have been scared and alone,
And I have lived inside my fears.
I have laughed and I have cried,
I have been alone and depressed.
I thought I had my life together,
But in reality, it was a mess.
Getting high ruled my life,
A constant struggle each day.
I have fought and I have fought,
But the drugs always got their way.
“I am not doing this today”,
I always said when I woke.
“I can’t believe I did it again”,
I am such a freaking joke!!!
I can’t stop and I need help,
Please see through my crooked lie.
I want to stop living like this,
And I don’t want to be high.
“I need help” there, I said it,
I have opened up that door.
I know my life can get better,
And I know that I deserve more.
I will take help from anyone,
I will lose my selfish pride.
I will let down all the great walls,
And I will FINALLY let people inside.
One day turned into two,
And then two turned into three.
I finally feel alive,
I finally can become me.
One day at a time,
I have learned how to live.
I stopped being on the take,
And actually learned how to give.
Living a life clean and sober,
Is truly second to none.
And I can finally tell all my dealers,
That “hey, this guy is done!!”
If you think you can’t stop,
It will be there that you will stay.
But if you seek out the help,
You will find a better way!
I will promise you one thing,
And I will tell you this from the heart.
Put down the booze and drugs,
And a new life you will start…..
Rich Barnes