It was my dirty little secret,
that I never wanted to tell.
It was my dirty little secret,
that I was living my life in hell.
Outside everything seemed normal,
too bad I was living a lie.
But I always wore that stupid smile,
even though I wanted to die.
So many years of faking happiness,
has finally worn me thin,
I was fighting an uphill battle,
a battle I would never win.
I am an addict and I can’t stop using,
I am addicted to the core.
Too many years have passed me by,
I just can’t take this anymore.
You see, addiction has taken over,
and I no longer want to live.
For this world I have nothing to offer,
And surely I have nothing to give.
You have seized control of my mind,
and I no longer can feel my soul.
So many years of senseless fighting,
has finally taken its toll.
I will stop all this shit tomorrow,
to myself, this is what I always said.
I will stop all this shit tomorrow,
with a bullet right through my head.
The world is better off without me,
I know I would never be missed.
No longer will I upset anyone,
Making them sad or getting them pissed.
I have now become a statistic,
my life has come to an end.
I never knew that drugs would have killed me,
Because I always thought they were my friend…
Please do not become a statistic..THERE IS HELP OUT THERE!!! I remember when I got clean, a man that was clean for many years told me something so profound, I almost fell over. He told me that I never, ever have to pick up a drug again and that very statement, has stuck with me for over 8 years!!! YOU NEVER, EVER HAVE TO PICK UP AGAIN!!!!!!!
If I can get clean, so can you!!!! Reach out that hand, call a hotline, scream from the top of your lungs, do whatever it takes, BUT JUST DO IT!!!!!!! I promise you that once you put down the drugs and/or alcohol, your life will take on a whole new meaning!!!!!!!!
Warmest regards,
Rich Barnes
Richfulthinking.com