Am I truly a bad person, or am I really truly sick?
Did I really create this wall, made of mortar and brick?

I am not sure why I do this, I really hate getting high,
I will do it one more time, and I will pray that I don’t die.

Ahhh, there is the rush, it is speeding through my veins,
Gone is the anxiety, the desperation, and the pains.

Are these feelings really gone, or do the drugs just push them aside,
I am so freaking confused, I just want to crawl under a rock and go hide.

Drugs and more drugs, it is just too hard to quit,
I feel as though I am falling, into a bottomless pit.

When does it end, or do I really have to die?
I am in so much mental pain, all I do is just cry.

My life is such a blurr, it is going by way too fast,
I am gonna try to get sober, and break this addiction at last.

One day after another, the months have turned to years,
Gone are the self-doubts, the self-hatred, and all of my fears.

Sobriety has afforded me, a life that I never knew,
You should certainly give it a shot, aren’t you long over due?

If you are high right now, make it your last!! Make a decision to seek the help that is readily available to you and start living your life the way it is supposed to be lived, happy and free. Make no doubt about it, I personally know how hard it is to get clean..I have been there and made it out and guess what?? You can too!!!!!!!!!! If you need help and feel that there is nobody that can help you, ask me!! I will get you the help you need and free you from the mental pain that addiction causes!!!!!! If I can not help you, I will find someone who can…I am passionate about my sobriety and I want to give it away to anyone who wants it!!!!!!!!!!!

Warmest regards,

Rich Barnes
www.richfulthinking.com