Angry at myself, with blood in my nose,
angry at myself, because nobody knows.

I am living a lie, and spiritually unfit,
I am killing myself, and I don’t give a shit.

Drugs have taken me over, I just can’t get enough,
I gave up on quitting. because quitting was too tough.

I am certain I am in trouble, this life I lead must end,…
I have burnt many relationships, that I know will never mend.

It is either clean up or die, and I know I want to live,
I thought it aas you that I was mad at, but it is me I need to forgive.

God help me I said, please help me win this fight,
Please.God I need you, I need to make my life right.

That was almost seven years ago, I have been clean since that day,
I have finally put down the drugs, and my troubles magically went away.

So if you think you can’t do it, and you think about dieing,
my advice. I would give, would be to never stop trying!!!!!

For you are so worth it, you are God’s child as well,
and if you look to Him for help, you will stop living in your hell….

Rich Barnes